tooo bad a very fine looking lady to grace the pages of rmm
As time passes on the reason for me leaving RMM is getting worse and worse. People are fake, deceitful and manipulative.
Again, the last thing I can think about is getting naked in front of a group of strangers.
I just checked this forum at random, out of curiousity.
I have sworn men off forever, and if you knew why, you wouldnt blame me. Besides...due to lack of hunger I have lost some pounds...in all the wrong places, if you catch my drift.
As time passes on the reason for me leaving RMM is getting worse and worse. People are fake, deceitful and manipulative.
Again, the last thing I can think about is getting naked in front of a group of strangers.
I just checked this forum at random, out of curiousity.
I have sworn men off forever, and if you knew why, you wouldnt blame me. Besides...due to lack of hunger I have lost some pounds...in all the wrong places, if you catch my drift.
As time passes on the reason for me leaving RMM is getting worse and worse. People are fake, deceitful and manipulative.
Again, the last thing I can think about is getting naked in front of a group of strangers.
I just checked this forum at random, out of curiousity.
I have sworn men off forever, and if you knew why, you wouldnt blame me. Besides...due to lack of hunger I have lost some pounds...in all the wrong places, if you catch my drift.
Well that sucks to say the least.
Hope things turn around for you soon. Just gotta try and focus on the positive I guess.
I know I've never posted in here before, but I can't not say something about this...
While, yes, it's true that a lot of men are complete arseholes, I don't think you'd find a guy here (in this thread - I'm sure there's plenty of arseholes on this site elsewhere) who wouldn't give up his left testicle in a rather painful way if it meant he could know you were feeling alright. By extension, they'd probably give up the right as well in an equally non-surgical manner if it meant they could also see you smile.
Words like your last strike me like a hot iron in the back, and it makes me feel sick to think someone could so willingly do something like this to one so undeserving. I may not know you, and I may not have spoken to you before, but someone with words like yours is clearly worth far more than what's happened. And even without those words there's still the great many people who've come together, here, to show you their support that tells me you deserve so much better.
I hope you find your appetite soon. Not for the images, of course (your admirers wouldn't care about a few missing pounds, I can assure you), but for your own health. I also hope that you can get yourself through this. I've been to the bottom before myself - twice - and can still only imagine what it is you're going through.
We're all here for you if you need or want us; even many of those who haven't even said so, yet.
As time passes on the reason for me leaving RMM is getting worse and worse. People are fake, deceitful and manipulative.
Again, the last thing I can think about is getting naked in front of a group of strangers.
I just checked this forum at random, out of curiousity.
I have sworn men off forever, and if you knew why, you wouldnt blame me. Besides...due to lack of hunger I have lost some pounds...in all the wrong places, if you catch my drift.
Who nailed people in 3 words there DY...
I must say I am concernec about your well being, I just hope you have some people close to you who can help you through this ashtray experience in your life
I know I've never posted in here before, but I can't not say something about this...
While, yes, it's true that a lot of men are complete arseholes, I don't think you'd find a guy here (in this thread - I'm sure there's plenty of arseholes on this site elsewhere) who wouldn't give up his left testicle in a rather painful way if it meant he could know you were feeling alright. By extension, they'd probably give up the right as well in an equally non-surgical manner if it meant they could also see you smile.
Words like your last strike me like a hot iron in the back, and it makes me feel sick to think someone could so willingly do something like this to one so undeserving. I may not know you, and I may not have spoken to you before, but someone with words like yours is clearly worth far more than what's happened. And even without those words there's still the great many people who've come together, here, to show you their support that tells me you deserve so much better.
I hope you find your appetite soon. Not for the images, of course (your admirers wouldn't care about a few missing pounds, I can assure you), but for your own health. I also hope that you can get yourself through this. I've been to the bottom before myself - twice - and can still only imagine what it is you're going through.
We're all here for you if you need or want us; even many of those who haven't even said so, yet.
-Jak.
Ok...I might as well share with what happened (shortened version). I put my dirty laundry out here on this site, so I feel I should tell.
1. Involved with a guy for 2 yrs...I left my ex for him...he was my ex's guitar player in the band so the whole hook up was stressful.
2. He in short was a loser. No high school diploma, no ambition, and spent EVERY waking moment playing counter strike...but I felt drawn to him as he thought I was very appealing (his ex girlfriends were...shall I say not that wonderful)
3. I got him to get his GED, get some goals and go to college AND get a job.
4. We moved in together.
5. I put up with alot....he spent every waking moment playing counterstrike...was depressed and boring...was physically abusive (nosebleed,hair pulled out,amoung other things) his family also was not educated or well bred and there are many other issues I was patient with.
6. I gave him my whole self and 100% love and support.
7. He up and left me 4 weeks ago...b/c he said "I need too much attention and he cant give that to me"
8. I just found out on the internet that he is trashing me behind my back to people ("damn my stupid ex girlfriend...made me move out of my apartment") and he had a THREESOME with two older women only 2 weeks after dumping me.
I am in a very low place. I have no friends b/c my ex was all I needed/wanted. I felt that he loved me and he lead me AND my WHOLE family to believe that we were getting married. I am still in shock and wonder why I wasn't enough to keep him happy. He has dozens of friends, and women are hitting on him left and right and he is partying, having the time of his life. So this is pretty much what I'm going through...shortened version. Men are basically walking penises...and those that deny it just lack the confidence to go after all the women they want.
I am in a very low place. I have no friends b/c my ex was all I needed/wanted. I felt that he loved me and he lead me AND my WHOLE family to believe that we were getting married. I am still in shock and wonder why I wasn't enough to keep him happy. He has dozens of friends, and women are hitting on him left and right and he is partying, having the time of his life. So this is pretty much what I'm going through...shortened version. Men are basically walking penises...and those that deny it just lack the confidence to go after all the women they want.
My dear girl,
Men maybe jerks, But this is probably for the best.
I can't see that guy going anywhere positive.
So mend your wounds quickly and remember what it is you have inside of you - and that is a big heart.
Men maybe jerks, But this is probably for the best.
I can't see that guy going anywhere positive.
So mend your wounds quickly and remember what it is you have inside of you - and that is a big heart.
People, and friends will flock to you
Seymour, what you are writing to me helps more than you realize. I am starting all over. I joined a book club, and spending alot of time with my sister (god bless her she is so wonderful). But I think it will take a while to build a life and community for myself.
But between you and me (as bad as this sounds) I will silently pray that he doesn't finish his schooling and he falls on his face...
Seymour, what you are writing to me helps more than you realize. I am starting all over. I joined a book club, and spending alot of time with my sister (god bless her she is so wonderful). But I think it will take a while to build a life and community for myself.
But between you and me (as bad as this sounds) I will silently pray that he doesn't finish his schooling and he falls on his face...
You are right. I just am hurting now. I hope he does find happiness and success.
But you know what is funny....when he came to get all his belongings HE was the one crying his eyes out, not me. I refused to let him see that in fact I told him he would be ok and study hard in school.HA how ironic is that? I would never beg to ANYONE.
Ok...I might as well share with what happened (shortened version). I put my dirty
I am in a very low place. I have no friends b/c my ex was all I needed/wanted. I felt that he loved me and he lead me AND my WHOLE family to believe that we were getting married. I am still in shock and wonder why I wasn't enough to keep him happy. He has dozens of friends, and women are hitting on him left and right and he is partying, having the time of his life. So this is pretty much what I'm going through...shortened version. Men are basically walking penises...and those that deny it just lack the confidence to go after all the women they want.
WOW this guy really fucked with your perception of the male sex.
Without sounding too harsh the guy never seemed to have anything going for him except you. You started out with him when he was a loser and he never changed. The fact that he physically assaulted you in not only unforgiveable but criminal and totally cowardly.
The only mistake you made was alienaitng yourself from your friends to be solely with this creep and they have no turned their back on you. I am sure if you apologised for the past, and they were any sort of friend they would slowly start to build a level of trust and love for you again.
Lastly, while he may be partying all the time and have girls throw themselves at him, this will not last. Im guessing he is in his 20s or some shit but who is he going to be come 40, or 50? If he is still alive he'll most likely be in jail getting his asshole ripped apart every night or he will be living a very lonely existence. You on the other hand, with your sincerity, personality and beauty (both within and on the outside) will be wherever you want to be in life.
WOW this guy really fucked with your perception of the male sex.
Without sounding too harsh the guy never seemed to have anything going for him except you. You started out with him when he was a loser and he never changed. The fact that he physically assaulted you in not only unforgiveable but criminal and totally cowardly.
The only mistake you made was alienaitng yourself from your friends to be solely with this creep and they have no turned their back on you. I am sure if you apologised for the past, and they were any sort of friend they would slowly start to build a level of trust and love for you again.
Lastly, while he may be partying all the time and have girls throw themselves at him, this will not last. Im guessing he is in his 20s or some shit but who is he going to be come 40, or 50? If he is still alive he'll most likely be in jail getting his asshole ripped apart every night or he will be living a very lonely existence. You on the other hand, with your sincerity, personality and beauty (both within and on the outside) will be wherever you want to be in life.
Soldier on sweetheart
Yes he is 22. You may be right but as of now my heart disagrees. I really do feel like there was nothing wrong with what he did...and that I deserved it.
He also told me that he needs to "take a break from the relationship thing" b/c of what he's going through (whatever the hec that means) and he also admitted to being a "fucked up asshole". Unreal!!!
But before him I was a VERY VERY knaive little girl (even though I'm 3 yrs. his senior), so I guess I can thank him for teaching me life lessons.
I appreciate your positive words a great, great deal.
Yes he is 22. You may be right but as of now my heart disagrees. I really do feel like there was nothing wrong with what he did...and that I deserved it.
He also told me that he needs to "take a break from the relationship thing" b/c of what he's going through (whatever the hec that means) and he also admitted to being a "fucked up asshole". Unreal!!!
But before him I was a VERY VERY knaive little girl (even though I'm 3 yrs. his senior), so I guess I can thank him for teaching me life lessons.
I appreciate your positive words a great, great deal.
In all reality I really do not know you but it breaks my heart to hear ANY woman say that there was nothing wrong with getting beat up and that THEY in fact deserved it. The sooner you realise that none of this was your fault and that you NEVER deserve to be mistreated by him or anyone else the sooner you will be on the road to recovery.
Please, please whatever you do NEVER take this guy back into your life. I have seen so many women throw endless years away on men who just do not deserve to be breathing the same air as them. All he means is that he wants to go out and fuck other women for a while before coming back to you. Please don't allow this to happen to yourself.
I am sure in years to come this period in your life will be a defining moment that will steer the remainder of your journey so just ensure that you take everything you can from it and go for the nice guy in future...
