they are an expression....but its so close to what i want to be the truth.........you dont know me well enough.....but...im really not a happy person inside.....not right now atleast.......im going back into something i used to be.....and....i dont know how to stop it.....she was what pulled me out of it a long time ago....and.....its not there anymore....nothings there.....just............emptyness.....

hey, I'm not sure of the personal turmoil of which u speak, but things always seem worst right when you are experiencing them. It's only after you have gone through them and later on you can look back and put them in perspective and know that you are are a stronger person because of it.
hope things turn around for ya.

Dido Gnappy

well...its still hell....im scared shitless of losing two of the closest people ive ever had in my life....and i dont honestly know what to do about it anymore....i feel like im going thru hell and back with this and i dont know what to do...but....im somehow managing to function. its odd...really

The funny thing about life... is that no matter how shit it is at times... it still goes on, and my friend.... so shall you

well now....lets see how things have been with me. i try to move on, they wont let me...i swear to god, people i NEVER thought would go against me have completley betrayed me...so you know what? FUCK THEM! im sick of them doing this shit to me, im sick of them treating me like bullshit and lying to me and betraying me and doing everything they can to make my life a living hell. its one thing to do it while im at home and trying to sleep. its another to flat out lie to me and take it to my WORK PLACE!!! they fucking LIED to me and brought shit to my work today and tried to make ME out to be the bad guy. and the person i thought would never do anythign against me...the one i thought who was actually CARING for me....fucking betrays me...flat out betrays me and goes against a solemn vow i made her make to me! i cant have a single piece of private talk with either one of them anymore and im fucking sick of it. so if they want to start shit with me, in my place of employment, lie to me, and treat me like the bad guy? FUCK THEM UP THE FUCKING ASS WITH A FUCKING CATTLE PROD TURNED SIDEWAYS!

ever get this strange feeling that the girls going to end up pregnant in 6 months?

sorry...needed venting time. fucking bullshit....

...aaaaaaaand exhale...

hopefully it felt good to get that shit out naraz... feel free to keep venting...

...and i hear that looking at tits helps make a man feel better too

lol...honestly? sex isnt that much on my mind right now...its more along the lines of beating the bloody hell out of something or someone....

she brought the new boyfriend with her...and tried to start shit between the two of us, but wouldnt let him out of the car. something about me being a pussy and stabbing the fucker or something...funny, considering i didnt even have my knives on me today.....

oh well, took it out on a metal door...dented it too and thats some thick shit

damn my hands gonna feel good in the morning...

BUT...i wouldnt mind if a few of our lovely ladies decided to put a few up here for me???

it's good to get that shit out Naraz. And don't let stupid people get you down. Don't even react to stupid shit. Take the stoic approach, even if that's not how you feel. They WANT to get a reaction out of you. Then do what I do. Go buy a 80 lb heavy bag, some good wraps n bag gloves and just wail away at it til you're ready to drop. Then vent about it on here and look at boobs.

Move over Dr. Phil, Gnappster's in town!

Awww, Naraz. I'm sorry you have to put up with stupid bitches. I'll kick her ass when I get there. Its been a while since i've had a good fight. My kiddo has been screaming for hours but if she ever takes a nap, i'll try and get a pic up for you.

*comes running,singing lullabies withh children's tylenol in hand*

LOL...Well hurry up, already!

PLEEEEEEEEEAAAASEEEEE go to sleep little one! uncle narazbad will give you a nice toy if you do!!!

Naraz... I hope this doesn't offend but it sounds like the girl in question is nothing but what you Americans call "White Trash" and what we aussies call a "bogan" or "westie"

She is no good.... if she comes to your workplace again ring the fucking cops because you are being harassed!

There are planty more fish in the sea dude... you are a young guy and I hate to say this but you'll probably have experiences like these again (break ups etc). Its all a learning curve... and you'll become a betterman for it!

eh...fuck them. i bet they will be back within a month

seriously tho...this is the worst break up ive ever been thru....but hopefully it will be over soon

thats right... Fuck em!

Know you know why illegal substances were invented!

know you know? wow.....i think your on em!

think????

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